From A Foundation of Fear

I will not engage you from a place of fear.

Believe me,
I know fear and anxiety better than I know myself;
Mostly because
I have known them longer.

But,

I cannot and will not engage you from that place
Because I do not believe
It will do either of us
Any
Good.

Starting from fear
Is like planting one’s feet on a sheet of ice.

Maybe not my feet.
My feet are so rough and calloused
I can run down walls.

But, in general,
Feet do not plant well on ice.
They’re given to
Slipping,
Sliding,
And stumbling.

Asking me to start from fear
Is like asking me to fall
Before I’ve had a chance to jump.

So roll up that expectation,
Set it on the stove,
And leave the water out of this,
Because you
Need to let that motherfucker burn motherfucker.

Your insecurities
Are showing like smoke signals on a clear day.
I hear your message
Like an air horn in a library.

I know you’re used to thinking like a box cutter.
I know you’re used to living like a tire fire,

But your toxicity,
Your systemic breaking down,
Won’t
Break
Me
Down.

Because starting from fear
Is to start from a broken place.
And I’ve got enough brokenness
For the both of us.

I’m not looking for more.

So take a deep breath,
And let’s try this again.

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About St Basil Z Fish

Curator of the strange and incredibly awkward. A rambling writer with the misguided notion he has something to say. His only redeeming qualities are his wife and children.
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1 Response to From A Foundation of Fear

  1. J.S. Mueller says:

    “I know you’re used to thinking like a box cutter.
    I know you’re used to living like a tire fire…”
    Wow.

    Liked by 1 person

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